I sit and stand, walk and talk look and hear but am still aimless in transition...

i seek your attention, but not your fraction

aku kian lama semakin malas

aku tidak tahu apa sebabnya

kegembiraan ini tidak lagi seperti dulu

semakin lanjutnya usia, semakin berat senyumanya

bagaikan hujan yang turun tidak tahu masa

aku bersantap pada masa yan

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Keresahan sudah mula memelukku,
Kini mula ku sedar kasih and cinta adalah dua kata yang asing,
Bagaikan Bulan sama Matahari..
Beza pada waktu and masa tapi bukan perasaan…
Sekarang tiba masanya untuk memulakan fasa hidup yang baru,
Kegembiraan adakalanya datang dan pergi,
Tapi setiap memori masih segar dalam ingatanku..
Tidak pernah ku lupakan setiap langkah, perkataan ataupun masa yang sudah berlalu,
Karang ku derita sebab ku tidak dapat berjumpa ataupun katakan apapun lagi,
Ku harap masa boleh ubati kesedihan dan jarak ini…
Mengapa jumpa untuk ucapkan selamat tinggal..

Written: 04/07/08

Confusion

Who am I? Who are you? What is our connection? Am I your friend or are we just partners or friends or just mere fuckers? Tell me something that i don’t know..hear me, see me, watch me, touch me, kiss me, clean me, cleanse me, hate me, hug me will you…can you hear me..can’t you see wats happening…Its going all wrong now…everything…every single thing…you know wat i prefer sex, chocolate, liquor and a whole bunch of losers who say they care and are there for you but they don’t..all they do is brag about the goodness of life and the beauty of it all…Is that wat u really need when ur in a shit hole?
I want to seeI want to feelI want to seekI want to hear the cries of silentI want to know wats in your mindI want to know wat ur thinking about meI want to know if you love meI want to know if u hate meI want you to touch meI want you to tear me apartI want you to have me wholeI want you kiss meI want you to sleep beside me and strangle meI want you say I’m crazyI want you to slap me in the faceI want you to feel the pain in my heartI want you to count my scarsI want to hear you speak to meI want you stop time and just spent the silent moment with meI want you to cry andI want to laugh I want to hug you as i strip before my death bedI want my body to give you the best comfort but not the service of lust,i want you admire me but i in return want to love you endlessly, I want I want I WANT..

Written: 16/09/2007

moonlight

I looked up at the sky and you weren’t there…
I felt alone..as thought part of me has left…
I missed talking to you…walking with your light shining over my path….
Its been quite sometime since i really admired you…
I wish at times I can fly over to you and keep you company..
Your light gives me comfort..
Your presence gives me joy…
And when your not around..I feel empty….
My happiest moment is seeing your beautiful full moon…
Its this joy i can’t explain…but I know deep inside…your very special to me..

Written: 14/04/2007

Crave

It you died it would be like my bones have been removed,
No one would know why,
But i would collapse…..

Written: 23/03/2007

Kesunyian yang sepi ini,
Dibilik yang gelap bagaikan maut akan tiba,
Tiada siapa bersamaku yang boleh memahami keadaan ini..
Suatu masa dahulu, keyakinan and kehebatan menyalutiku,
Tetapi semuanya telah pun berubah sekarang…
Apakah maksud hidup ini tanpa inspirasi?
Adakah Manusia di takdirkan sebegini untuk menghayati hidupnya?
Soalan demi soalan boleh ku tujukan tapi jawapannya…….???
Sekarang tibanya masa untuk ku menulis isi hatiku ini…
Aku ingin meninggalkan tempat ini,
Aku inginkan suatu tempat yang indah, aman serta orangku tersayang…
Ini hanya suatu keinginan yang kian mereput…
Biarpun apa jua kejayaan…kegembiraan, keinginanku lemas dalam lurah yang penuh sesak..
Aku ingin terbang tinggi di langit dan tidak ingin pulang…
Aku ingin bebas…….
Bebas bagaikan bidadari yang suci…

Written: 14/02/2007